Log One

The film section of the website is intended to present as balanced a view as possible of the movies I recommend and also the more famous movies which I don't like. Everyone's taste is different and I recognise that.

The music section is just a selection of songs which I enjoy. I tend to prefer music that sounds good as opposed to songs written with meaning. In general I like upbeat, high tempo songs. This most definitely won't be to everyone's taste.

For the past few years I have suspected that women believed I was sending insulting messages but at no point did any of those women accuse me of it directly. I have indicated to some of them that if they were in receipt of insulting messages, or messages containing pathetic apologies, weak excuses or arrogant and conceited remarks then those messages should be ignored. In particular if a woman is being bombarded with messages I would prefer if she did not read them at all because in the past three years in particular the most texts or emails I have sent that were not responded to by any girl is about three. Since July 2009 I have only sent two emails to a girl that were not of a routine nature. In particular none of these messages if they exist, appear on my mobile bills which means that if they exist they are most likely coming from websites with a reputation for impersonation. Under no circumstances therefore would I want any girl to be affected by them or to assume that if they exist that they come from me. I don't fully understand that if the messages don't appear on my bills and I don't want any woman to read them why women would be so cynical in believing that I sent them. It doesn't seem to occur to women that I'm the one person who suffers most as a result of the messages. I'm the one who is hated and whose chances of getting lucky with a girl are greatly diminished because of the impersonations.

For all the cynical women in the world, it would be great if there was just one nice attractive woman who had some level of confidence in me and discussed something openly if she had any doubts. I would much prefer to go out with an attractive relatively sane woman more than anything else in the world whether that be winning the lottery or actually being good at sports.

When it comes to women I lack confidence. If I don't talk to an attractive girl, it is most likely linked to a lack of confidence and not arrogance. I am normally uncertain as to whether a woman wants me to talk to her or slowly dip me in a container of piranha fish. Obviously if a woman is in receipt of insulting messages from other people pretending to be me, then this would lead to a greater lack of confidence. I also have problems smiling. I can't smile at a girl if I want to and other times when I don't want to smile I end up smiling. I put it down to nervousness.

In some cases even not saying hello to people can be put down to a lack of confidence, where they are people I hardly know or where other people don't make eye contact or don't say hello themselves. In other cases I quite often fail to see people because of repeated lapses in concentration. Sometimes I'm walking down the street and I'm wondering - who put that building there? such is my lack of awareness. On other occassions I wake up and wonder how come I didn't notice someone earlier. In some cases if I haven't seen someone in five years or more, it's possible that I don't recognise them. Sometimes in crowds such as at football matches I don't always look around me too much and quite often don't notice people.

I should also explain that several stunts have been pulled in order to persuade people that I am guilty. One of them involved a former workmate (six and half years ago) sending me an email and asking me to open it on a computer facing him (that was not my computer). The email was a joke email of dancing and singing men with no clothes on that could not be minimised and so as soon as I opened it he recorded it on his camera phone.

If someone is able to impersonate me by text or email then there are many possibilities. They could for example name an innocent party by text or email and then follow that by saying I lied or I apologise. The possibilities are endless as long as people continue to believe that impersonations are authentic. All emails and texts should be treated with extreme scepticism.